Posturing

I had my first crush on somebody when I lived in Mill Woods, and it seems so quaint now. One of the other strange kids in art class. Of course I was shy and not having such an easy time, so I worried that he would think I was weird and pretended to be drawing flowers or whatever when he was around, while I hid my nervousness. I admired everything about him with my entire little 14 year old heart. I was fascinated that somebody could go around everywhere without really caring what people thought. It's a quality I admire to this day in people, but also one that's not part of me. Despite anything I might say or do otherwise. But that's supposed to be a secret. There are probably like three people that read this thing, and various others from Russia and Malaysia hahaha
So it's still a secret.