Change of scenery

Hah, maybe that's what I need.
I want the feeling I always experience, when I walk through an unfamiliar city.
There's always a feeling of regret when I come back home, into familiar surroundings and see the sameness. A vague dissatisfaction when nothing has changed.
The closest thing that somebody in my situation can do is go to the next province for a while, I'll thing about it for a while longer.

Maybe the reason I feel this way are the people I'm surrounded by. My two so-called friends, I feel that somehow I always end up alienated and wanting to escape these people.
This evening I kind of lost my desire to go anywhere, my feelings were badly hurt again. I had the vague confirmation that I was being ignored, despite my best efforts at always trying to be kind and whatever.
It's really silly isn't it, I came back from the hospital (getting my arm brace taken off) and was sitting these umm...friends of mine. Then it happened, a verbal mishap and that strange feeling that I was being ignored was confirmed.
Of course, I thought to myself that I was never really happy being friends with two idiots that derive satisfaction from sitting around all day watching trashy TV and can't even tell the difference between North and South Korea.
I don't like feeling that sense of superiority to people, my mother always told me to be a polite girl and not to act better than others because nobody is perfect. These childhood lessons always haunt us adults, don't they?
But that sense of being above these two was the only way I could keep from crying and feeling horribly lonely.
And so the reason for my need to escape is explained. I want to go away and avoid all the places where I've felt sad because of other people.